1 00:00:57,560 --> 00:00:58,560 Hi. 2 00:00:58,720 --> 00:00:59,720 Hey. 3 00:00:59,980 --> 00:01:00,980 How you doing? 4 00:01:01,520 --> 00:01:03,220 Good, thanks. How are you? I'm good. 5 00:01:04,040 --> 00:01:05,040 Good. 6 00:01:06,200 --> 00:01:07,199 You're late. 7 00:01:07,200 --> 00:01:08,600 I'm late. I'm sorry I'm late. 8 00:01:09,340 --> 00:01:10,340 It's okay. 9 00:01:10,400 --> 00:01:12,960 I'm about 10, 15 minutes late in life. 10 00:01:13,520 --> 00:01:14,520 I've realized. 11 00:01:15,180 --> 00:01:16,300 You're always late. 12 00:01:16,640 --> 00:01:19,600 Yeah. It might be a good thing for you to bear that in mind. 13 00:01:21,240 --> 00:01:22,240 Okay. 14 00:01:22,800 --> 00:01:24,640 What were you thinking when I texted you? 15 00:01:28,330 --> 00:01:29,330 You mean the honest answer? 16 00:01:29,750 --> 00:01:30,750 Yeah. 17 00:01:31,090 --> 00:01:32,090 Ooh. 18 00:01:32,370 --> 00:01:33,650 Only the honest answer. 19 00:01:33,970 --> 00:01:36,370 I was thinking, oh, this guy. 20 00:01:36,990 --> 00:01:37,990 Oh, this guy? 21 00:01:38,190 --> 00:01:39,190 This guy. 22 00:01:39,750 --> 00:01:45,150 I don't know. Like, if it was anyone else, I would have probably dismissed 23 00:01:47,690 --> 00:01:48,690 Okay. 24 00:01:49,110 --> 00:01:52,750 I don't know. I felt... I don't know why. I don't know why I felt this 25 00:01:52,750 --> 00:01:54,530 differently. 26 00:01:58,120 --> 00:01:59,119 That's good. 27 00:01:59,120 --> 00:02:00,120 Yeah. 28 00:02:05,860 --> 00:02:06,860 Okay. 29 00:02:13,700 --> 00:02:14,700 Look. 30 00:02:16,400 --> 00:02:18,700 Together for over 65 years. 31 00:02:18,980 --> 00:02:22,260 Yeah. Let me not to the marriage of true minds. 32 00:02:22,660 --> 00:02:23,660 All right. 33 00:02:27,050 --> 00:02:28,470 I have to sit here now. 34 00:02:28,810 --> 00:02:29,810 Okay. 35 00:02:30,250 --> 00:02:31,250 Wow. 36 00:02:32,650 --> 00:02:35,110 65 years. Imagine being with someone for 65 years. 37 00:02:35,630 --> 00:02:36,630 That's crazy. 38 00:02:37,430 --> 00:02:38,430 Yeah. 39 00:02:41,330 --> 00:02:44,110 Is that a dream? Would that be the dream? Is that your dream? 40 00:02:50,630 --> 00:02:52,590 Maybe, yeah. The right person. 41 00:02:56,270 --> 00:03:00,010 If she can't really know, can't really know that's starting out. 42 00:03:02,370 --> 00:03:03,370 Yeah, 43 00:03:05,930 --> 00:03:09,330 that would be... The idea of it's nice. 44 00:03:11,490 --> 00:03:12,490 I think so. 45 00:04:31,760 --> 00:04:34,260 I just wanted to say I hope you like me as much as I like you. 46 00:05:44,380 --> 00:05:45,380 Yeah. 47 00:05:46,360 --> 00:05:48,900 All right, then. No worries. Thank you very much, though. 48 00:05:49,780 --> 00:05:51,320 All right. Cheers, buddy. 49 00:05:51,920 --> 00:05:52,920 Cheers. Thanks. 50 00:06:07,560 --> 00:06:08,840 So you've been on many of these... 51 00:06:10,420 --> 00:06:11,420 Swipe right dates. 52 00:06:13,160 --> 00:06:15,320 No, I'm pretty new to it, actually. 53 00:06:15,680 --> 00:06:16,680 Oh, yeah? 54 00:06:16,720 --> 00:06:17,720 Yeah. 55 00:06:17,920 --> 00:06:18,920 What did you do before? 56 00:06:21,340 --> 00:06:22,720 Fell into things by accident. 57 00:06:23,080 --> 00:06:24,080 Oh, okay. 58 00:06:24,620 --> 00:06:26,820 What about you? You've done this a lot. 59 00:06:27,320 --> 00:06:32,760 Yeah, I've defeated, I've clocked the dating apps. I'm waiting for, like, 60 00:06:32,760 --> 00:06:33,679 two to come out. 61 00:06:33,680 --> 00:06:35,660 Oh, you've completed it. I've completed it, yeah. 62 00:06:36,040 --> 00:06:37,140 Clocked. That's gaming. 63 00:06:37,460 --> 00:06:38,419 Okay, sorry. 64 00:06:38,420 --> 00:06:39,420 The term. 65 00:06:40,420 --> 00:06:43,160 Yeah, no, a lot, a lot, and I should stop. 66 00:06:44,200 --> 00:06:47,920 But when you're just in the office all the time and you're sort of like, you're 67 00:06:47,920 --> 00:06:50,860 seeing the same people, then you've got your time's precious. 68 00:06:51,120 --> 00:06:52,840 You've got a lot of time, you know, it makes sense. 69 00:06:53,960 --> 00:06:54,960 Yeah. 70 00:06:57,680 --> 00:07:00,480 And good experiences? 71 00:07:02,060 --> 00:07:05,800 Good and bad. Sometimes people look nothing like their picture. 72 00:07:06,240 --> 00:07:08,980 And if you're going to sound bad, but like... 73 00:07:09,210 --> 00:07:11,530 One girl literally turned up, and she had, like, two extra tints. 74 00:07:12,290 --> 00:07:15,150 Now, I know that sounds... You know what I mean, though? It's like, why are we 75 00:07:15,150 --> 00:07:16,150 starting on a lie? 76 00:07:16,550 --> 00:07:20,950 I don't have a problem. I don't necessarily need a girl to be skinny, or 77 00:07:20,950 --> 00:07:23,830 really bothered about size, but, like, let's not start on a lie. 78 00:07:24,130 --> 00:07:26,810 We're starting a date with an elephant in the room. Do you know what I mean? 79 00:07:27,650 --> 00:07:28,650 An elephant in the room? 80 00:07:29,030 --> 00:07:30,370 No, I don't... Sorry. 81 00:07:32,030 --> 00:07:33,970 Sorry, I know what you're saying. I know what you're saying. Yeah, you know what 82 00:07:33,970 --> 00:07:34,970 I'm saying. 83 00:07:35,950 --> 00:07:38,470 So what made you start swiping? 84 00:07:44,750 --> 00:07:51,390 I don't know. I guess I'm hoping to meet some interesting people, maybe, 85 00:07:51,490 --> 00:07:53,630 and just see what happens. 86 00:07:54,530 --> 00:08:01,470 You're not looking for anything specific, or...? What, like, husbands, 87 00:08:03,250 --> 00:08:04,250 What, Adam? 88 00:08:04,470 --> 00:08:07,330 I don't mean, like, second date, let's get married, but... Yeah. 89 00:08:07,610 --> 00:08:11,130 You're going there with intention. Like, some people are on it just to have a 90 00:08:11,130 --> 00:08:13,470 shag, and some people are on it for other things. 91 00:08:16,000 --> 00:08:17,580 Yeah, possibly, possibly. 92 00:08:17,940 --> 00:08:21,740 I haven't made up my mind about all that stuff yet. 93 00:08:24,600 --> 00:08:25,600 At all? 94 00:08:26,920 --> 00:08:30,660 At your age? Not like that. I know it sounds bad, but at your age, you must 95 00:08:30,660 --> 00:08:32,559 thought about it, clock ticking, all that. 96 00:08:34,880 --> 00:08:40,419 Well... Yeah, I've thought about it. I haven't decided. 97 00:08:44,650 --> 00:08:45,650 You ever thought about a kid? 98 00:08:47,490 --> 00:08:48,490 Thought about it. 99 00:08:48,710 --> 00:08:49,830 Still thinking about it. 100 00:08:52,030 --> 00:08:57,770 But I... I suppose I just, I don't know exactly what it is that I want yet. And 101 00:08:57,770 --> 00:08:59,490 I'm still trying to figure it out. 102 00:09:03,210 --> 00:09:04,210 So why are you on the date? 103 00:09:08,770 --> 00:09:09,770 This date? 104 00:09:09,970 --> 00:09:10,970 Yeah, why are you on this date? 105 00:09:14,570 --> 00:09:18,350 I don't know. I thought we were getting to know each other, having a chat. 106 00:09:19,570 --> 00:09:23,750 You seem like an interesting guy. I thought we could see what happens. 107 00:09:25,030 --> 00:09:28,070 When you say see what happens, do you mean actually see what happens? Yeah. 108 00:09:31,270 --> 00:09:32,270 You look annoyed. 109 00:09:32,410 --> 00:09:37,050 I'm not annoyed. I just know what I want out of this. And if I meet someone, I'm 110 00:09:37,050 --> 00:09:41,310 meeting, thinking, what is this and what can this be? 111 00:09:43,070 --> 00:09:48,290 I don't mean to put pressure or anything like that. I just mean I have to waste 112 00:09:48,290 --> 00:09:50,870 a lot of time. I've been on a lot of these dates and I just feel sometimes 113 00:09:50,870 --> 00:09:55,210 getting a little bit frustrated when someone's just come out of a 114 00:09:55,210 --> 00:09:57,110 or someone's not ready. 115 00:09:57,390 --> 00:10:00,190 I sort of just feel like I need to be a lot more honest. 116 00:10:00,410 --> 00:10:05,390 So I know that can be abrasive for some people, but yeah, that's what I'm 117 00:10:05,390 --> 00:10:06,390 asking. 118 00:10:07,590 --> 00:10:11,570 Because I don't think you know what you want. See, I think you're wasting my 119 00:10:11,570 --> 00:10:12,570 time. 120 00:10:12,940 --> 00:10:17,180 I think you're here to find yourself, or use me to find yourself, or use me to 121 00:10:17,180 --> 00:10:20,820 find what you really want, and I just fucking wasted my time to do this. 122 00:10:22,220 --> 00:10:24,860 So, I think we should just leave it here, yeah? 123 00:10:26,020 --> 00:10:27,080 Okay. I'm right, right? 124 00:10:29,880 --> 00:10:30,880 I'm... I'm right, right? 125 00:10:32,520 --> 00:10:35,640 Yeah, fucking joke. You think you're right. I'm right. Okay. Don't waste my 126 00:10:35,640 --> 00:10:36,640 fucking time. Peace. 127 00:11:16,360 --> 00:11:17,360 What do you want, Mum? 128 00:11:18,460 --> 00:11:19,800 Um, herbal, please. 129 00:11:28,300 --> 00:11:29,300 Chamomile, all right? 130 00:11:29,880 --> 00:11:30,880 Lovely. 131 00:11:41,400 --> 00:11:43,140 Do you want me to leave your tea bag in? 132 00:11:43,820 --> 00:11:44,820 Yes, please. 133 00:11:59,950 --> 00:12:02,670 Do you remember what your grandmother used to say? 134 00:12:04,910 --> 00:12:09,790 She used to say, there is no path to happiness. 135 00:12:12,110 --> 00:12:14,450 Happiness is the path. Yeah. 136 00:12:18,770 --> 00:12:22,270 It feels strange not having her there. 137 00:12:22,870 --> 00:12:27,290 But you have to build your own happiness, Hannah. 138 00:12:28,620 --> 00:12:31,440 You are very smart. You're strong. 139 00:12:32,780 --> 00:12:33,860 You're beautiful. 140 00:12:35,080 --> 00:12:36,360 Yeah, you are, really. 141 00:12:37,900 --> 00:12:41,740 And you can have everything, Hannah. 142 00:12:42,460 --> 00:12:44,480 But it doesn't happen by itself. 143 00:12:46,080 --> 00:12:51,540 And sometimes you have to make conscious decisions about what you want in life 144 00:12:51,540 --> 00:12:57,020 and make a plan and stick to it. 145 00:12:58,190 --> 00:12:59,450 You don't need to worry about me, Mum. 146 00:13:00,570 --> 00:13:01,570 I'm all right. 147 00:13:03,250 --> 00:13:04,330 I'm fine, Mum. 148 00:13:05,250 --> 00:13:08,410 And I don't think you are, Hannah. I'm happy, Mum. 149 00:13:08,790 --> 00:13:10,690 I really don't think you are. 150 00:13:11,650 --> 00:13:18,330 I know this is going to sound silly, Hannah. 151 00:13:19,470 --> 00:13:22,890 But one day you're going to wake up and you're going to be 40. 152 00:13:24,330 --> 00:13:27,530 Well, they say that 40 is a new... 153 00:13:27,960 --> 00:13:32,660 20, 50, 30, so... Not that bad. 154 00:13:32,980 --> 00:13:34,720 You might look great. 155 00:13:35,720 --> 00:13:42,540 But your body will be that of a 40 -year -old woman, and... I don't want 156 00:13:42,540 --> 00:13:49,520 you to... miss out on building a family and sharing 157 00:13:49,520 --> 00:13:50,760 your life with somebody. 158 00:13:52,920 --> 00:13:57,120 Of building a really loving, meaningful relationship. 159 00:13:57,950 --> 00:14:01,710 God, Mum. All I really care about is your happiness. 160 00:14:02,330 --> 00:14:07,390 I don't want to just sit here and watch you and have cups of tea once a month 161 00:14:07,390 --> 00:14:11,830 while your life just drifts by. Mum, please, please, please drop this. 162 00:14:12,410 --> 00:14:15,190 I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you don't have grandkids. 163 00:14:15,790 --> 00:14:21,130 It's not about that, Hannah. It's not about me having grandchildren. 164 00:14:21,550 --> 00:14:23,950 It's about the whole of your life, darling. 165 00:14:24,600 --> 00:14:27,560 You can't meet Mr. Wonderful when you're 60, darling. 166 00:14:44,740 --> 00:14:45,740 Hi, Mum. 167 00:15:57,930 --> 00:16:01,330 You take a step, my heart beats on my chest. 168 00:16:01,610 --> 00:16:05,530 And if you need to tell, then you are like the rest. 169 00:16:05,790 --> 00:16:09,550 Now that you've made your way, it's time for us to play. 170 00:16:09,910 --> 00:16:13,370 And when I'm done with you, you'll take a mercy. 171 00:16:14,070 --> 00:16:19,970 We like you. We like you. We like you. 172 00:16:57,420 --> 00:16:59,620 Hello. How are you doing? 173 00:16:59,960 --> 00:17:00,960 Hey, darling. 174 00:17:01,300 --> 00:17:03,780 How are you doing? I'm good, thanks. How are you? 175 00:17:04,060 --> 00:17:05,060 Yeah, good. 176 00:17:05,079 --> 00:17:06,180 This is Gabriel. 177 00:17:06,579 --> 00:17:07,579 Oh, my gosh. 178 00:17:07,619 --> 00:17:09,660 Hello. He's gorgeous. 179 00:17:10,119 --> 00:17:11,118 Oh, hi. 180 00:17:11,119 --> 00:17:16,420 Yeah, he's quite cute, isn't he? Gosh, I... Oh, thank you. 181 00:17:16,720 --> 00:17:19,339 That's really kind. Thanks so much. 182 00:17:20,740 --> 00:17:21,740 Yes. 183 00:17:22,119 --> 00:17:23,380 How are you? 184 00:17:23,760 --> 00:17:25,339 I'm good. I mean... 185 00:17:25,589 --> 00:17:29,290 The lack of sleep thing is difficult, but apart from that, I feel really good. 186 00:17:29,510 --> 00:17:32,050 I feel really happy, quite contented. 187 00:17:32,330 --> 00:17:36,170 I don't think I was expecting to feel the big love rush thing everyone talks 188 00:17:36,170 --> 00:17:37,730 about, but it's all true. 189 00:17:39,870 --> 00:17:41,470 And Tim's been brilliant. 190 00:17:41,670 --> 00:17:44,870 He's been just an absolute Trojan. 191 00:17:45,330 --> 00:17:49,890 He's there every step of the way with the 2am feeds and the 4am feeds and 192 00:17:49,890 --> 00:17:53,930 changing nappies in the middle of the night. He takes it all in stride and 193 00:17:53,930 --> 00:17:57,120 he's... He's amazing. It's really brought out the best in him, I think. 194 00:17:57,560 --> 00:17:59,180 And the best in us, I think. 195 00:17:59,640 --> 00:18:00,640 Yay! 196 00:18:02,520 --> 00:18:04,020 Yeah. Yeah. 197 00:18:08,640 --> 00:18:09,640 Do you want to hold him? 198 00:18:10,720 --> 00:18:12,120 Yeah. Yeah? Why not? 199 00:18:12,400 --> 00:18:13,660 Cool. Are you sure? 200 00:18:13,880 --> 00:18:14,880 Yeah. 201 00:18:15,260 --> 00:18:16,260 He's quite ill. 202 00:18:17,140 --> 00:18:19,260 Which side do you want his head? 203 00:18:19,480 --> 00:18:22,600 Left or right? Yeah, right I guess. Straight over. 204 00:18:26,000 --> 00:18:27,460 I need to wake up. Oh, God, quick. 205 00:18:59,409 --> 00:19:02,250 I'm so happy for you. Oh, thank you. 206 00:19:03,350 --> 00:19:04,350 Amazing. 207 00:19:05,550 --> 00:19:06,770 Amazing what you've done. 208 00:19:09,430 --> 00:19:10,430 Oh, love. 209 00:19:13,350 --> 00:19:15,690 Oh, love, what's going on? Nothing, honestly. 210 00:19:16,530 --> 00:19:18,090 Come on, are you all right? What's happening? 211 00:19:19,090 --> 00:19:20,090 Fine. 212 00:20:42,000 --> 00:20:43,140 Yeah. Ian, how are you doing? 213 00:20:43,660 --> 00:20:44,660 I'm good, thanks. How are you? 214 00:20:44,960 --> 00:20:45,960 Great. Good. 215 00:20:46,460 --> 00:20:50,520 Sorry if I've kept you waiting. No, no, no, not at all. It's been, like, ten 216 00:20:50,520 --> 00:20:51,519 minutes. It's fine. 217 00:20:51,520 --> 00:20:55,840 It's fine. I ordered a sort of small beer, and I've drunk a bit of it, so I'm 218 00:20:55,840 --> 00:20:58,120 pretty much raring to go. Do you want a drink? 219 00:20:58,820 --> 00:20:59,820 Yeah, why not? 220 00:21:01,280 --> 00:21:02,280 What can I get you? 221 00:21:02,740 --> 00:21:05,900 Can I have a vodka cranberry juice, please? Sure, no problem. 222 00:21:06,160 --> 00:21:07,160 Thank you. 223 00:21:10,890 --> 00:21:11,890 How was your day? 224 00:21:13,930 --> 00:21:14,930 Good. 225 00:21:15,070 --> 00:21:18,890 Good. I do like freelance copywriting. 226 00:21:19,490 --> 00:21:20,490 I'll tell you what I wrote. 227 00:21:20,830 --> 00:21:24,930 Right. There's a button you have to click to get into the website. 228 00:21:25,750 --> 00:21:29,590 And I gave them five different options. 229 00:21:29,870 --> 00:21:33,410 And we went with, eventually, click here. 230 00:21:34,690 --> 00:21:36,510 So there you go. Three years at university. 231 00:21:36,850 --> 00:21:37,850 Pretty solid. 232 00:21:38,930 --> 00:21:39,930 So there you go. 233 00:21:44,300 --> 00:21:45,300 Here's a romance. 234 00:21:45,340 --> 00:21:51,500 Sometimes I want to meet someone who I can find peace with, titled fucking 235 00:21:51,500 --> 00:21:56,420 Tranquility. But then... But then sometimes I just want... 236 00:21:56,420 --> 00:22:00,180 Fucking chaos, you know? 237 00:22:00,680 --> 00:22:07,120 All that person to be mad and drive me insane and torment me even more, you 238 00:22:07,120 --> 00:22:08,120 know? 239 00:22:08,660 --> 00:22:12,380 So tell me, what's Hannah looking for? What are you after? 240 00:22:15,400 --> 00:22:20,600 I don't know, I suppose when it comes to a relationship, I want to have the 241 00:22:20,600 --> 00:22:24,100 freedom to be myself. 242 00:22:25,300 --> 00:22:26,520 Like, completely myself. 243 00:22:27,540 --> 00:22:34,300 And... I don't know if I've ever really had that in a 244 00:22:34,300 --> 00:22:35,300 relationship. 245 00:22:36,700 --> 00:22:43,040 Like, don't we want contradictory things from people? Like, we like the idea 246 00:22:43,040 --> 00:22:49,600 of... Safety and security and love and care and someone to feel like home. 247 00:22:50,480 --> 00:22:53,840 And of course we want that. We need that. But then there's another side of 248 00:22:53,840 --> 00:23:00,760 that wants novelty and excitement and the new. And I don't know how you 249 00:23:00,760 --> 00:23:05,760 resolve that. I don't know how you resolve that with just one person. So I 250 00:23:05,760 --> 00:23:07,380 that I don't want to be tied down. 251 00:23:08,340 --> 00:23:12,120 I know that I want excitement. 252 00:23:14,760 --> 00:23:15,760 I like that. 253 00:23:19,060 --> 00:23:25,060 I... I don't know, I guess sometimes I feel like I'm a bit of a freak. 254 00:23:26,820 --> 00:23:33,680 Compared to other women that I know. I mean, most of my friends from school and 255 00:23:33,680 --> 00:23:38,800 uni, they're already settling down. Some are on their, you know, their second or 256 00:23:38,800 --> 00:23:40,840 third kids. 257 00:23:42,990 --> 00:23:48,170 I worry sometimes that I'm going to be left behind before I figure my shit out, 258 00:23:48,290 --> 00:23:49,290 you know? 259 00:23:52,030 --> 00:23:53,030 I don't know. 260 00:23:53,970 --> 00:23:54,970 Yeah. 261 00:23:56,370 --> 00:23:59,870 Pretty fucking incredible as far as I'm concerned. 262 00:24:04,110 --> 00:24:05,110 Um, 263 00:24:05,710 --> 00:24:09,010 just going to go to the loo. Yeah, that's fine. Sorry. 264 00:24:57,760 --> 00:25:00,000 Come on, let's go back upstairs. 265 00:25:00,360 --> 00:25:01,299 Let's go back upstairs. 266 00:25:01,300 --> 00:25:02,460 Come on, straight up, straight up. 267 00:26:05,640 --> 00:26:09,440 So, yeah, I was telling you that my parents had a dinner party a few weeks 268 00:26:09,440 --> 00:26:14,340 and they were, like, had all their friends over and they were all, like, 269 00:26:14,340 --> 00:26:20,180 brought all their kids and it was, like, so mental, but it was so, so, so fun. 270 00:26:20,400 --> 00:26:26,900 We had, like, this huge table for all, like, my mum and dad's friends and then 271 00:26:26,900 --> 00:26:28,500 we had, like, another table for all the kids. 272 00:26:28,740 --> 00:26:33,000 And it was just... so fun like everybody was together and they were all telling 273 00:26:33,000 --> 00:26:37,620 stories about being on holidays with their kids and like kids were like 274 00:26:37,620 --> 00:26:40,300 about or being friends together they've all known each other since they were 275 00:26:40,300 --> 00:26:46,280 little and i was just like oh my god like i want that like 276 00:26:46,280 --> 00:26:53,020 i want to have that relationship with someone that's like my person my 277 00:26:53,020 --> 00:26:59,820 partner and my husband and i want to have The house and the white picket 278 00:26:59,820 --> 00:27:06,680 and the children and the dog and the nice kitchen with the 279 00:27:06,680 --> 00:27:13,560 island in the middle. And I know that sounds materialistic, but I think 280 00:27:13,560 --> 00:27:14,560 it's more than that. 281 00:27:15,020 --> 00:27:20,400 I don't know. I guess I just don't see the point in being in a relationship for 282 00:27:20,400 --> 00:27:21,400 the sake of it. 283 00:27:22,920 --> 00:27:25,580 What's the point? What's the point in being with someone who isn't right just 284 00:27:25,580 --> 00:27:26,580 because you're scared of being alone? 285 00:27:27,300 --> 00:27:34,260 You know, I would rather be on my own than be with someone who isn't right. 286 00:27:35,100 --> 00:27:39,800 And I see so many women, so many people that we know, they've panicked and they 287 00:27:39,800 --> 00:27:42,920 have settled for, like, the next guy that's like, he'll do, like, I've just 288 00:27:42,920 --> 00:27:47,900 to have kids. And I just, I don't want to be that person. I want something 289 00:27:48,080 --> 00:27:49,680 I do. 290 00:27:52,129 --> 00:27:56,130 And you know what my biggest fear is? My biggest fear is that actually I'm 291 00:27:56,130 --> 00:28:01,010 getting it wrong and... And maybe my mum's right. I'm going to wake up and 292 00:28:01,010 --> 00:28:03,590 going to be... And it's going to be too late and I'm going to realise too late 293 00:28:03,590 --> 00:28:04,590 that that is what I want. 294 00:28:05,470 --> 00:28:09,650 That is what I want and I've fucked it up. I'm terrified of fucking it up. 295 00:28:13,830 --> 00:28:15,310 Fucking ridiculous, actually. 296 00:28:18,330 --> 00:28:19,710 It's so fucking unfair. 297 00:28:20,490 --> 00:28:24,110 so fucking unfair that we even have to think about this now guys can decide to 298 00:28:24,110 --> 00:28:29,030 have kids when they're 50 it's not an issue but the moment we hit 35 it's like 299 00:28:29,030 --> 00:28:34,570 you've got to decide now or it's gonna be too late and like you know what we've 300 00:28:34,570 --> 00:28:38,490 been told from like our teenage years to our 20s like it's like the worst thing 301 00:28:38,490 --> 00:28:41,470 that can happen is to get pregnant it's like at the end your life will be over 302 00:28:41,470 --> 00:28:43,990 right that's what we're told that's like drilled into us from 303 00:28:44,780 --> 00:28:48,660 such a young age and then suddenly it's like it switches it goes from like don't 304 00:28:48,660 --> 00:28:52,980 get pregnant to like you better fucking get pregnant or or you've missed your 305 00:28:52,980 --> 00:28:56,740 chance and that's like literally that change happens in like five years in 306 00:28:56,740 --> 00:29:00,740 30s and it's just like what the fuck so now in this tiny space of time i meant 307 00:29:00,740 --> 00:29:04,300 to find the guy the perfect guy the guy that i could potentially spend the rest 308 00:29:04,300 --> 00:29:09,000 of my life with and do that and get all that done i just think it's insane i 309 00:29:09,000 --> 00:29:12,400 think it's crazy i think it's fucking crazy i just 310 00:29:13,430 --> 00:29:17,010 And I don't want to buy into any of that crap, but yet I still, obviously, I'm 311 00:29:17,010 --> 00:29:18,010 bothered by this crap. 312 00:31:45,640 --> 00:31:46,640 Good morning. Morning. 313 00:31:47,280 --> 00:31:48,760 Have you an appointment with Dr. Sarris? 314 00:31:48,960 --> 00:31:49,960 Sure. Can I have your name? 315 00:31:50,220 --> 00:31:51,220 Hannah Lee. 316 00:31:52,380 --> 00:31:54,280 If you'd just like to take a seat here, the room will be shortly. 317 00:32:16,059 --> 00:32:19,840 Obviously, it very much depends on who's doing the egg freezing, what their age 318 00:32:19,840 --> 00:32:22,240 is, and how many eggs we can get as well. 319 00:32:22,460 --> 00:32:26,500 The success rate of somebody who's in their 20s, where you might have 10 or 12 320 00:32:26,500 --> 00:32:29,680 eggs frozen, might be as high as 40 or 50 percent. 321 00:32:30,700 --> 00:32:34,780 But for a woman who's in her 40s, the success rate can be as low as 1 percent. 322 00:32:35,200 --> 00:32:39,840 So at the age that you are, very roughly we'd expect about a 3 to 4 percent 323 00:32:39,840 --> 00:32:41,840 chance of each egg to give us a baby. 324 00:32:42,360 --> 00:32:47,420 Three to four. Correct. But of course, if we have a number of eggs, 10 eggs or 325 00:32:47,420 --> 00:32:52,440 dozen eggs, for example, it can be anywhere between 20, 25, maybe even 30 % 326 00:32:52,440 --> 00:32:53,439 success rate. 327 00:32:53,440 --> 00:32:57,120 Egg freezing is like an insurance policy, but actually it's not a very 328 00:32:57,120 --> 00:32:58,119 insurance policy. 329 00:32:58,120 --> 00:33:01,320 Because you'd expect a good insurance policy to pay out every time that you 330 00:33:01,320 --> 00:33:04,760 it, as opposed to this is a might pay out. 331 00:33:05,140 --> 00:33:08,000 But it's the best that we have. Unfortunately, we have nothing better 332 00:33:08,440 --> 00:33:12,300 It's hope, though, isn't it? It is hope, but it wouldn't be right for me to tell 333 00:33:12,300 --> 00:33:17,760 somebody that this is a guarantee, when in fact it's just a possibility. 334 00:33:40,270 --> 00:33:41,270 I'm so worried. 335 00:33:44,710 --> 00:33:45,710 Mum. 336 00:33:46,670 --> 00:33:47,649 It's okay. 337 00:33:47,650 --> 00:33:48,650 It went really well. 338 00:33:49,490 --> 00:33:50,490 Really well. 339 00:33:50,830 --> 00:33:51,830 Okay? 340 00:33:53,430 --> 00:33:58,190 He was amazing. The doctor, you know, he really reassured me. We talked through 341 00:33:58,190 --> 00:34:02,230 everything and... Yeah, I'm going to do it. 342 00:34:05,010 --> 00:34:06,010 I am. 343 00:34:07,150 --> 00:34:09,590 You should be happy for me. You should be happy. I'm so happy that I'm going to 344 00:34:09,590 --> 00:34:12,510 have some options. I'm going to have some more time. 345 00:34:14,770 --> 00:34:15,770 It's a good thing. 346 00:34:16,630 --> 00:34:17,969 It really is. It's a good thing. 347 00:34:19,030 --> 00:34:20,730 You know, yeah. 348 00:34:22,610 --> 00:34:27,830 I can, in a few years, if I've met someone, I can, you know, we could do 349 00:34:27,830 --> 00:34:30,850 together. Or if I haven't met someone, I could do it on my own. It's all 350 00:34:30,850 --> 00:34:31,850 possible. 351 00:34:32,770 --> 00:34:33,770 Brilliant, really. 352 00:34:35,070 --> 00:34:36,070 I promise you. 353 00:34:37,110 --> 00:34:38,170 Don't look so worried. 354 00:34:39,750 --> 00:34:40,750 Come here. 355 00:34:44,730 --> 00:34:45,730 It's all right. 356 00:34:48,770 --> 00:34:50,469 I really wish you'd been there, actually. 357 00:34:51,330 --> 00:34:55,150 If you'd heard what he had to say, I think you'd feel so much better about 358 00:34:55,949 --> 00:34:56,949 Come on. 359 00:34:58,190 --> 00:35:00,150 Honestly, it's really exciting what they can do. 360 00:35:02,410 --> 00:35:03,410 Okay. 361 00:35:03,770 --> 00:35:06,850 It's okay. Look, you were the one who told me to come up with a plan. This is 362 00:35:06,850 --> 00:35:07,850 plan. 363 00:35:08,110 --> 00:35:09,110 It's a good plan. 364 00:35:09,670 --> 00:35:10,670 Are you sure? 365 00:35:10,890 --> 00:35:11,890 I'm sure. 366 00:35:23,290 --> 00:35:27,990 Okay, Hannah, what I'm going to do now is I'm just going to insert the probe. 367 00:35:28,130 --> 00:35:30,870 You might feel a little bit of pressure. 368 00:35:33,160 --> 00:35:38,260 And if you want, you can look at the screen as well. So here I'm just looking 369 00:35:38,260 --> 00:35:39,260 the womb. 370 00:35:39,480 --> 00:35:41,740 This little triangle inside of the cavity. 371 00:35:42,020 --> 00:35:47,140 And you can see just here how on either side the tubes are going out of the 372 00:35:47,140 --> 00:35:49,660 womb. And we'll check that a little bit later. 373 00:35:50,980 --> 00:35:56,720 And here what we're looking at is the ovarian one side, this little grey area. 374 00:35:57,200 --> 00:36:00,320 And what I'm trying to see is how many of the little black... 375 00:36:00,620 --> 00:36:03,180 spots I can see inside, which is where eggs are developing. 376 00:36:07,160 --> 00:36:11,360 Okay, so now that we've looked at the ovaries and the womb, I'm just going to 377 00:36:11,360 --> 00:36:15,400 arrange for you to have your blood test, and after that, I'll see you back in 378 00:36:15,400 --> 00:36:16,400 the consulting room. 379 00:36:17,680 --> 00:36:23,520 So, for somebody of your age, we'd expect to see 15 or 16 of these little 380 00:36:23,520 --> 00:36:25,440 developing follicles with their eggs inside. 381 00:36:25,800 --> 00:36:30,700 But when I scanned you, unfortunately, what I saw was... one follicle. 382 00:36:31,420 --> 00:36:36,320 Now, the blood test that we did is another way of looking at what's 383 00:36:36,320 --> 00:36:40,200 your ovaries. And again, your results came back very low. 384 00:36:40,460 --> 00:36:45,040 In combination, those two tests tell us that the number of eggs your ovary is 385 00:36:45,040 --> 00:36:49,300 releasing every month is much less than we would expect for someone of your age. 386 00:36:50,200 --> 00:36:55,880 The final test that we did looks at the tubes that connect the ovaries to the 387 00:36:55,880 --> 00:36:56,880 womb. 388 00:36:57,040 --> 00:36:58,500 And unfortunately, 389 00:36:59,320 --> 00:37:05,860 What that test showed us is that both tubes appear to be blocked and not to be 390 00:37:05,860 --> 00:37:06,860 working properly. 391 00:37:07,880 --> 00:37:14,460 So, what exactly does that mean 392 00:37:14,460 --> 00:37:15,540 for me? 393 00:37:16,460 --> 00:37:20,620 Well, the chance of achieving a natural pregnancy on your own is very low. 394 00:37:21,610 --> 00:37:26,370 Now, for egg freezing to be something which is worthwhile from an insurance 395 00:37:26,370 --> 00:37:30,450 point of view, we would want to be able to collect a good number of eggs. And 396 00:37:30,450 --> 00:37:36,470 based on today's information, we would be 397 00:37:36,470 --> 00:37:42,010 very unlikely to be able to collect that number of eggs, even with multiple 398 00:37:42,010 --> 00:37:43,110 cycles of egg freezing. 399 00:37:43,370 --> 00:37:48,230 Also, even if we tried to do something like IVF, although not impossible, 400 00:37:49,020 --> 00:37:51,040 the chance of success will be very low as well. 401 00:37:57,960 --> 00:37:58,960 Okay. 402 00:38:00,560 --> 00:38:02,800 I know it's a lot to process right now. 403 00:38:03,520 --> 00:38:06,300 We can arrange for another meeting to talk about it again. 404 00:38:07,460 --> 00:38:12,100 Also, what a lot of women find useful is maybe speak to a counsellor. I can give 405 00:38:12,100 --> 00:38:13,900 you details for that as well. 406 00:38:15,520 --> 00:38:16,520 Okay, yeah. 407 00:38:17,950 --> 00:38:20,370 Yeah, that would be good. Thank you. Thank you. 408 00:38:20,850 --> 00:38:23,690 Do you have any other questions? Anything else I can help you with at 409 00:38:23,690 --> 00:38:24,690 moment? 410 00:38:26,530 --> 00:38:27,990 No, no. No other questions. 411 00:38:28,630 --> 00:38:29,750 Thanks very much. 412 00:42:16,710 --> 00:42:18,610 Because I get bored of people so easily. 413 00:42:24,190 --> 00:42:29,670 I mean, at this bit, for example, most of the time, like, after... 414 00:42:29,670 --> 00:42:35,930 After I've done it, like, I just kind of... 415 00:42:35,930 --> 00:42:39,570 I'm not interested anymore. 416 00:42:39,790 --> 00:42:41,150 Like, I could take it or leave it. 417 00:42:52,490 --> 00:42:53,490 I'm really liking this. 418 00:42:57,830 --> 00:42:59,890 I'm really, really liking this. 419 00:43:00,630 --> 00:43:07,570 I just kind of... I don't want to leave. 420 00:43:09,350 --> 00:43:10,350 I, um... 421 00:43:10,350 --> 00:43:17,190 I don't want to mess this 422 00:43:17,190 --> 00:43:18,190 up. 423 00:43:22,730 --> 00:43:24,090 We don't have to worry about kids. 424 00:43:25,210 --> 00:43:28,590 This is just about you and me. 425 00:43:30,950 --> 00:43:33,090 This could be that 65 -year thing. 426 00:43:35,470 --> 00:43:36,790 This is the one. 427 00:43:50,170 --> 00:43:51,170 Fucking hell. 428 00:43:58,540 --> 00:44:02,160 I don't get you. I do not get it. Are you telling me all that stuff you said 429 00:44:02,160 --> 00:44:03,820 me about how I make you feel? 430 00:44:04,300 --> 00:44:05,300 You do. Right? 431 00:44:05,860 --> 00:44:08,140 And now you just want to dash it all away. 432 00:44:08,700 --> 00:44:09,720 That's not what I'm saying. 433 00:44:10,240 --> 00:44:14,720 I can't carry on with you as if nothing has happened. Things have changed for 434 00:44:14,720 --> 00:44:15,720 me. 435 00:44:16,040 --> 00:44:21,480 And I feel like I can be okay, but I need some time. 436 00:44:23,020 --> 00:44:26,440 Honestly, I don't think I can be in a relationship right now. 437 00:44:29,130 --> 00:44:30,310 Can you understand that? 438 00:44:31,970 --> 00:44:37,090 Isn't there a world, right, where I can help with that? I don't want you... I 439 00:44:37,090 --> 00:44:41,130 cannot rely on someone else to get me through this. I need to know that I've 440 00:44:41,130 --> 00:44:42,130 done it for myself. 441 00:44:42,310 --> 00:44:46,090 And I'm sorry, I know you want to be the knight in shining armour and you want 442 00:44:46,090 --> 00:44:50,610 to just, you know, help me pick up the pieces, but to be honest, I don't mean 443 00:44:50,610 --> 00:44:53,810 sound disrespectful, but I need to. I need you to understand why I need to do 444 00:44:53,810 --> 00:44:54,810 this by myself. 445 00:44:56,510 --> 00:44:57,510 I have to.